Sorry to get so personal and emotional in this post but please bear with me.
My Mom and I went to see the “The Intern” and it hit so close to home. On so many levels. In the movie Anne Hathaway plays a CEO watching her small company take off, and the struggles and stress it’s putting on her relationships and at how her life at home is suffering.
I came home and I cried. I literally sobbed into my husbands shoulder. Is that what I’m doing? Knitatude is such a huge part in my life. I’m constantly thinking about it. How to grow it, how to market it, how to make everything, how to control it and most of all how to catch up to it. Sometimes I feel like it’s taking away some of the most precious parts of my life. Like I’m too busy being focused on my business that I forget about the important stuff: My husband. Family and friends. Taking time to read a book. Enjoying a walk. Actually watching a movie at night without feverishly knitting away and feeling guilty if I put the needles down because I wasn’t solely focused on Knitatude.
My husband this week said “Lets move my Lazy Boy to my parents, so we can fit more room and make a storage space for your yarn”. His Lazy Boy. That he’s had for years before I even came into the picture. Something that I’ve just come to associate him with. Given up for some simple yarn space… I’m so thankful to have such a wonderful and supportive husband but sometimes I worry he’s having to give up so much for me to succeed.
As soon as I came in and started crying he immediately held me to his chest and reassured me that he wasn’t going to go anywhere and that he was so proud of me for being so successful. I can’t imagine having anything (including Knitatude) without him and his support.
Are any of my fellow #girlbosses out there feeling the same? I know Instagram and social media shows this wonderful side of owning a small business, but I feel like you never get to see the downs. I hope I’m not alone.